Where do I belong?

During the weekend I came to realize, I dont really know where I belong. My hometown has changed and apart frome the beach, sugarcane fields and the heat, I dont really want to go back there. I dont particulary like Jo'burg I feel lonely. I only have 2 friends in a 20km radius all my other friends stay so far.

I always imagined living in a neighbourhood, having tea parties with other moms, sharing recipes and having braais in the evenings, but it is so far from that, that is just a dream.

I feel I need to make a drastic change in my life, I really cant go on like this especially if I want to enroll Hannah into a good school and to create a place that she oneday can call home. 

Home is the place your heart resides Home is the place that you decide Home is the womb that holds the soul Home is the place where one is whole Home is the glow you hold in your eye Home is the emotion that makes you cry Home is safe and a place of peace Home is where all strivings cease Home is protective against the others Home is full of sisters and brothers Home is where you find your rest Home is where you feel your best Home is a memory that follows your being Home is a dream for those agreeing Home is the place where reserves fall Home is the place you yearn to call Home is where the family meets Home is a place of restful retreats Home is the place you know you’ll be heard Home is the pace where nothing blurs Home is all these wonderful things Home is the place you develop wings Home is the place that you’ll find one day Home is the place where your heart will stay